Life, My Months, Reading
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May 2022: spring, at last

Three photos of the same seaside landscape, showing a white boathouse, the ocean, and faraway mountains, seen in varieties of beautiful spring weather.
Three photos of the same seaside landscape, showing a white boathouse, the ocean, and faraway mountains, seen in varieties of beautiful spring weather.

Oh, May, what a ride you’ve been. There were way too many doctors for my liking, but I’m not too keen to remember that, so instead let’s pretend this month was nothing but glorious light, comfy beds and linen garments. To get in the right mood, listen to soothing piano music when reading this post (like the Peaceful Piano playlist on Spotify). Even better if you can sit by an open window, with a cool ocean breeze and the smell of freshly cut grass drifting in through white, flowy curtains. If that’s not possible, I hope my photos will help you pretend so, at least for a little while.

Outside

An otter, swimming back and forth each night at around 2 am, earning it stern glances from the seagulls currently brooding on the svaberg (the smooth rocks behind the boathouse). An eagle trying to steal seagull eggs (it’s exhausting to be emotionally invested in seagull eggs, I tell you). Russ, the high school seniors in their uniforms, in the boathouse, partying the night before our constitution day. Tiny coltsfoot (hestehov), a sign that spring is finally happening. Clean windows (thanks, mum!). Two white reindeer, an adult and a young one, taking a nap in the shade by the boathouse, then coming up to our fence to nibble at the still-dead grass.

A moody photo of an early sun reflected in the glass of a picture frame.
A moody photo of an early sun reflected in the glass of a picture frame.

Inside

Way-too-late nights spent on the sofa, marvelling at the pink sky and the golden sunlight.

Wanting proper fabric napkins. A new laundry routine, where I wash whatever I have every Monday, thus not ending up with no clean underwear and giant heaps of emergency laundry to hang and fold.

A new piano, a white electrical Korgh, which has the softest, clearest sound, and also looks like the acoustic upright piano we had when I was growing up.

A photo of a white electrical piano, sheet music at the ready.
A photo of a white electrical piano, sheet music at the ready.

Making

My determination finally overcame my sullenness, and I unpicked the carefully sewn side seams (French seams, even!) of my green linen shirt. I needed to alter the bust darts, the seam that goes from somewhere below the arm and towards the fullness of the bust in certain woven garments, to give shaping around the bust. Fortunately it was a much quicker fix than I’d feared. I finished the shirt the next day, and have worn it so much since then. Will definitely be making more from the same pattern (the Tarawi shirt from Muna & Broad).

I’ve also been thinking about writing — fiction-writing, that is. Despite my reading abilities being pretty much at pre-brain-damage levels now (*applause, happy tears*), I’ve not been able to force myself back into fiction writing again. My stubborn streak means I rarely give up on projects, or even start with an easier one to build up to the more challenging ones. It’s usually worked well for me, but this time I’ve had to go easy on myself. So The Book isn’t completely abandoned, but I’ve started a new project just to get into the flow of things again. After a week I have 2800 words, which is so much more encouraging than zero.

A photo of a shelf with a plant, a small plaster bust, and two framed feathers, everything bathed in golden light.
A photo of a shelf with a plant, a small plaster bust, and two framed feathers, everything bathed in golden light.

Thoughts

Thinking about how I tend to see things as temporary — not in the sense that they won’t last forever, but rather that… this isn’t the real deal. I do it with my hair (“this hairstyle is just a temporary one until I figure out what I actually want/until I can grow my hair out/until I can get it properly cut”), with my home (“that thing isn’t supposed to be there, but I’ll put it there until I can figure out the real system”), and mentally/emotionally with my arts and crafts (“this painting is just to get something on the wall, one day I’ll paint something properly“). I suspect it says something about me that I’m not too keen to investigate, though I would like to… not do it so much. At least I don’t think about people or relationships that way, which I suspect would be much worse in all sorts of complicated ways.

Reading

  • The Daevabad Trilogy by S. A. Chakraborty, I’m currently at the beginning of the third book. Though I was at first highly offended by the book opening with a mini-encyclopedia about the worldbuilding (I blame you, Tolkien!), I’ve gotten properly sucked into it now, and I enjoyed the second book even more than the first. I suspect if you like Brandon Sanderson’s stuff, you’ll like this one, too!
  • “This Woven Kingdom” by Tahereh Mafi, which started so good, and then had an ending that felt like it was written by a completely different person. Very odd.
  • “Pleasure Activism” by Adrienne Maree Brown, which took me a while to get through, but had so many parts that set my mind churning, in a good way.
A photo of dewy grass in morning light.
A photo of dewy grass in morning light.

Watching (so much watching this month)

  • “Downton Abbey” (the series), still marvelling at how brilliant the writing is — whenever something happens to one character, the writers have found ways to connect it to at least one other, usually several, so the entire plot has such a satisfying continuous domino effect.
  • “Doctor Who”, the newest seasons with Jodie Whittaker, which I’ve not been able to watch until now. And it breaks my heart a little to say it, but I’m… I’m so disappointed in the writing! Unlike much of The Internet, I don’t think the issue has anything to do with the show having a female Doctor, nor how it’s more “politically correct”. But watching this parallel to Downton Abbey really drove home how much these newer seasons over-explain things, and how there’s suddenly so little spark going on? The whole point of Doctor Who is the spark, the witty banter, the way the characters make you care. I have so much hope for Ncuti Gatwa as the next Doctor, though. SO MUCH, he has the perfect energy for it.
  • “Gentleman Jack”, season 2. Another example of a show with odd writing choices. The first season is basically perfection in my eyes, I adore it. In this second one, half the characters have changed their personality. And after watching brilliant Anne Lister spit out “and you married that fat guy!”, as if that was the worst possible word her supposedly complex brain could think of, I stopped watching.
  • “Escape to the Château”, because sometimes you just need to watch someone tinker around with an old French castle.
  • So. Many. YouTube. Vlogs. Particularly the ones by Valerie Lin and Eugenia Diaz.
A photo of sunlight streaming into a bedroom, casting dappled shadows on the wall.
A photo of sunlight streaming into a bedroom, casting dappled shadows on the wall.

Listening

Birds outside. Ocean. Piano playlists.

Wearing

Safe clothes, for when the body feels unsafe.

Leather jacket, before it got hot.

My new me-made shirt (I’ll show you another time, promise).

Towards the end of the month: floaty summer dresses, finally.

A photo of an open window with thin embroidered curtains.
A photo of an open window with thin embroidered curtains.

Favourite memories

The Day The Piano Came.

A day that could have been all about shoulds and musts and health issues, but turned into a spontaneous outside takeaway lunch, and then a spontaneous trip to the garden store, picking up lavender and herbs and seeds. Have I ever gardened before? No. But I have a sneaking suspicion it might be in my genes.

Sunny mornings in general, sitting in my newly upholstered love seat, drinking tea from the French press, wearing my me-made shirt, listening to the waves and seagulls while reading a book. I really can’t think of much I’d rather do.

2 Comments

  1. Guðrún says

    This was, as ever, such a nice read. I look forward to these posts every month. It makes me, the reader, feel cozy and still in a fraught and busy world. The golden light photos are amazing (the one of the grass looks like a painting).

    • That’s what I was hoping for, the coziness and stillness 💛 thank you for commenting, it’s so kind of you!

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