This is unreal
by Maria
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I am so glad everyone I know are safe. I am so sad there are people who aren’t. Oslo is the only city I have lived in that has felt 100% mine, even more so than Harstad (my home town, where Cookie and I are at the moment). Now Oslo is a battle field. As for the rest of the news… I simply c a n n o t understand that anyone can be so cruel. I cannot.
Today is grey, it’s raining. I try not to read too many news sites, not to listen when the TV is on, because I need to go slow with this. Being depressed makes it hard to cope even on normal days, and this is about as far from normal as it gets. So I watch TV-series on my MacBook, read books and eat strawberries, and try to think of trivial things in between the drips of news I catch from Twitter or the TV downstairs.
I coloured my hair today. I bought the dye yesterday, before I heard the news (three minutes before I got the first text asking if I was okay, in fact), but I think it’s only suitable that it’s a shade darker, as everything else seems to be like that today. I wish there was something I could do.
Hi Maria -
I’ve been reading your blog for a long time and, among many things, I also thought of you and Cookie today. I am shocked and saddened. All I can say is – be strong. Norway is a beautiful country. All my thoughts are with you.
Martina
Thank you so much for a lovely comment, darling – your words mean a lot. It’s all a bit unreal to me still, but it’ll sink in eventually, I suppose.
Det er uverkeleg, det som har skjedd. Det er berre forferdeleg vondt.
Og eg forstår det du skriv om at du må ta det innover deg i eit roleg tempo. Eg kjenner sjølv at det blir for mykje iblant, at eg må tvinge meg sjølv til å sjå på ein serie, gå og trene, lage meg noko godt å ete, kva som helst, berre hjerna kan få litt kvile. Det er for mykje å ta inn på ein gong.
Ta vare på deg sjølv, søte!
<3
Takk det samme, kjære! Vi og Oslo skal klare oss helt fint, det tar bare tid <3
I am so glad that you and your loved ones are alright! When I heard about the tragedy, my mind immediately flashed to you and I prayed that you were safe. And, while it may not be the same thing, on the same day as that awful occurence, my mother passed away. The grief you are feeling, the places you hold dear losing their special shine and the mourning, I am feeling it now. My thoughts are with you.
I sent you a mail, darling <3 And thank you.